Why don't I have a map for this?

Dating
Ah…the awkwardness! The first time you go out is weird enough, but if it goes well there is so much more that is just strange. So, I have kind of started seeing this guy. We have gone out a handful of times, but now it is at that moment where you have some decisions to make. Do you keep getting to know each other or go to the just friends era? How much more small talk can you both really take? Do you start to let your true self show? Ya know…complain about work, not obsessively clean your house, wear less make up. I just wish you could start relationships like that in the first place. Why can’t we get all the ugly out of the way in the beginning and see how each other handle the bad? Anyway, I think I am going to keep it up, but keep my friends closer. We shall see what happens…